About 7 1/2 minutes ago, I was sitting on the bathroom floor at my girlfriends parentals.
"What are we gonna do for New years/your birthday?"
I didn't realize how much I unconsciously avoid and hate this question. Reason 1) I tend to feel sad on my birthday because I feel like it takes the backseat to New Years. (I know this is a very ego filled perspective, but nonetheless effects me at times.) Reason 2) ----
fuck it, I don't feel like talking about this anymore...
Basically what just happened was, Eileen said I should get out of my head, and that it helps her when she puts things on paper. I figured since I haven't written anything on this blog since my proclamation of allegiance to bloggerdom, I figured I'd give it a whirl. Once I started reading the self depricating nonsense that spewed out of my finger tips, I decided to hop off that train for fear that my blog would sound like the sad rantings of a kid with low self esteem... so to salvage my pride and mask my insecurities, I'll crack open a can of refreshing ice cold self delusion and change the subject...
I'm growing a beard..Makes me feel more masculine, but also teeters on looking slightly terroristy, given my dark complexion and bushy brows. Gotta keep it clean and trimmed to counter the Osama effect. Its actually almost a full time job. If you don't believe me, ask my mom. I was born with a full Sadaam mustache and had a Fidel Castro by the time I turned three.. seriously. I'm like a facial landscape artist in need of an 87' Toyota pickup to house my face mower.
hmm, what else to say...It seems I really like the triple period thing, I do it a lot... I also say "I" a lot...(there they are again...) I guess I'm way more narcissistic than I I Imagined. So what, aren't we all? I say embrace It(...) CapItalIze your I's and and embrace your "I"ness.
I'm over this for now... feeling better though. Havent quite found my comfort with the whole blog thing, but it is only blog number two...(hehe, I really cant help doing the "..." thing ;)
til' the next rant!
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